Miracles

Another picture I found myself starring at today...I was thinking about that time in my life, and it was one of the hardest and painful experiences that even today is hard for me to talk about. Ben was a day old, and was in the NICU because he was showing signs of an infection...and a lot of drama occurred from that...but I remember very vividly looking at my son, as shown in the picture, not being able to hold and kiss him or take him home, and thinking "God, why me?" I know that trials come to us to make us stronger and to help us learn and grow, and it's hard to not blame yourself for things that might not go the way you want. I think about the kind of person I was back then, and how much my trials have helped me become a better person...so in a way I am thankful for them. I think Ben looks like an angel in this picture.